Letting go of Timelines

“Never let a stumble in the road be the end of the journey.”

As many of you know, the last time I ran anything longer than a mile was March 22nd. I set out for a snowy 11 mile run and made it 8 miles before this pain in my knee came out of nowhere. Pain that I knew I could not run through. It felt like it was under my kneecap and I remember thinking this is not good. I walked home that day and I think I knew deep down I would be on a running break for a while, but I didn’t want to admit it.

Flash forward to now and I am still not running, but feeling like I am getting closer or at least going in the right direction. Originally this year I had a lot of running goals, first Boston, a 3:10 marathon and breaking a 90 minute half. All goals I knew I could do, if I was in the right shape.

When you are first injured the hardest part is letting go of those goals, letting them slip away and feeling okay with it. For me that started with Boston, my first DNS marathon. I picked a good one to not show up to right? When I let go of Boston I thought, it’s okay this is smart, because if I do this and keep recovering I can still go for a 90 second half in May at Wallis Sands. Then I withdrew from Wallis Sands, my goal half race for the year and then the Shipyard half in June. I am really on a role of DNS’ this year.

At first, releasing your grip on the timeline of your goals is hard, especially for a planner like me. But let me tell you, now I feel free. You can’t come back from injury with a timeline, you have to give yourself a clean slate to come back at your own pace. I still have CIM on the calendar but right now that is the only one and honestly, if I can’t run it I don’t care. If my body doesn’t end up being ready I am not going to push myself through a marathon, I would rather add another DNS to my list for 2018 ๐Ÿ™‚

Friday I had knee surgery, to remove the plica that is causing me pain. Hopefully in about 3-4 weeks I will be able to try running for the first time in 3 months, which actually doesn’t seem that long, but it is all relative. My only goal for this year, run a pain free mile or two or three! Run pain free and if any of my other goals happen then great, but I am pretty sure if they didn’t I would still finish the year with a smile on my face.

You see, I know I can run those times I have set out for, but it doesn’t mean I have to run them now or this year. Next year is just as good. My body will let me know when it is ready!

“No athlete is truly tested until theyโ€™ve stared an injury in the face and came out on the other side stronger than everโ€